Okay, so, about this “misty business anorexia” thing. I gotta tell you, it’s been a real journey, a pretty wild ride from start to finish. I never thought I’d be diving into something like this, but here we are.
It all started when I stumbled upon some stuff online. You know how it is, you’re just browsing, clicking around, and suddenly you’re down a rabbit hole. I found this community, full of people talking about, well, basically, starving themselves. At first, it was just out of curiosity. I was like, “What’s this all about?”
So, I started reading. A lot. Personal stories, some research papers that I could barely understand, and, a ton of forum posts. I was trying to figure out what drives someone to do this to themselves. It’s not just about being thin, you know? There’s a whole lot more going on in their heads.
Then, I decided to, well, experiment a little. I know, it sounds crazy, right? But I wanted to feel, even for a bit, what they might be feeling. Not the whole not eating thing, but more like, the control part of it. I started tracking everything I ate, every single calorie. I set strict rules for myself, like no eating after 7 PM, or only eating certain foods on certain days. It was tough, really tough.
- First, I downloaded an app, to track my meals and count calories.
- Then, I made a super strict eating schedule.
- I even started weighing myself multiple times a day.
And you know what? I get it now. Not the whole thing, but the feeling of being in control. When everything else in your life feels like it’s spinning out of control, this one thing, what you eat, how much you eat, it’s like an anchor. I felt it, that sense of accomplishment when I stuck to my rules, when the number on the scale went down.
But then, it started messing with my head. I was always thinking about food, or not eating, or what I would eat next. I got grumpy, really easily irritated. I stopped hanging out with my friends as much, especially if it involved food. And let me tell you, it’s hard to focus on anything when you’re hungry all the time.
That’s when I knew I had to stop. I was just dipping my toes in, and it was already pulling me under. I can’t even imagine what it’s like for those who are deep into it. It’s like, you think you’re in control, but really, it’s controlling you.
So, I stopped. Deleted the app, threw away the scale, and just ate when I was hungry. It took some time, but I felt like myself again. I started enjoying food again, not seeing it as the enemy.
This whole thing, it’s not something I’m proud of, experimenting like that. But I learned a lot. About them, about myself. It’s a serious issue, and it’s way more complicated than just wanting to be thin. It is like being trapped. There’s a lot of help out there, and I really hope people who need it can find it.
What I Really Took Away
It’s easy to judge from the outside. But when you try to understand, even a little, you see things differently. It’s not a choice, not really. It’s a struggle, a battle in their own mind. And honestly, it made me appreciate my own health, my own body, a whole lot more.
And for everyone, please be aware and offer help if you can. You might feel a little helpless from the outside, but you can always do something.
