Okay, so I’ve been diving into this whole “unmarked the politics of performance” thing, and let me tell you, it’s been a wild ride. I started off pretty clueless, to be honest. Just kinda poking around, you know?
Getting Started (and Feeling Lost)
First, I tried to get a handle on what “unmarked” even meant in this context. Was it about being anonymous? Invisible? I spent a good chunk of time just reading articles and watching videos, trying to wrap my head around the basic concepts. Some of it was way over my head, full of fancy academic talk. I just wanted something practical, something I could actually do.
Experimenting with Movement
Then I decided to just, like, move. I cleared some space in my living room, put on some music (nothing too structured, just vibes), and started experimenting. I tried to be really conscious of how I was moving, not in a “dance-y” way, but more like… how do I move when I’m not thinking about it? When I’m just being me?
- I walked around, paying attention to my weight shifting.
- I sat down and got up in different ways.
- I even laid on the floor and just… felt things. My breath, the floor beneath me, the random itches on my skin.
The “Unmarking” Part
This is where it got tricky. The idea, as far as I could understand, was to strip away the “performance” of everyday life. Like, the way we hold ourselves when we’re in public, the way we try to look “presentable.” I started to notice how much I was doing that, even when I was alone! I was still, in a way, performing for myself.
So I tried to let go of that. It wasn’t easy. I kept catching myself “posing” or thinking about how I looked. But I persisted. I focused on just being in my body, feeling the sensations, letting the movements happen without trying to control them.
The “Aha!” Moment (Maybe?)
I don’t know if I had a big “aha!” moment, exactly. It was more like a gradual shift. I started to feel… lighter, somehow. Less self-conscious. More present. It was like I was shedding layers of unnecessary effort, both physically and mentally.
I am very excited by what I have discovered, and I’m going to stick on reseaching deeply.
It’s still a work in progress, obviously. But it’s been a really interesting exploration so far. I’m curious to see where it goes. I might even try doing this in public, in a very subtle way, just to see how it feels. Wish me luck!
